From the time I was five years old, I only ever wanted to be an actor.
I wasn’t one of those kids who bounced around between dreams—I had laser focus. By the time I was eight, I was already working professionally, booking commercials for TV and radio, doing voiceover work for industrial videos and books on tape.
I went to an arts boarding school. I got my BFA in acting. I moved to L.A., confident and passionate, ready to fulfill what I believed to be my one true purpose.
And then… nothing.
Despite the clarity of my dream, despite the years of training, despite the work ethic and the passion—I wasn’t “making it.” And it wasn’t just about not booking roles. It was the heartbreak of not understanding why.
I truly believed the Universe had my back. My mother and grandmother were both past-life healers, and I was raised with a deep foundation in spiritual concepts. I knew how to manifest. I trusted divine timing. I felt that performing was my calling—and I believed with all my heart that the Universe would support me on this path.
But I was wrong.
After nearly a decade in L.A., I had very little to show for it. I started to book here and there… and then something unexpected happened: I realized I hated it. I hated the industry. I hated the lifestyle it demanded. The very thing I thought was my lifelong purpose started to feel like a trap.
I had to surrender. And not just “surrender” in the way we say when we’re still clinging to the outcome—I mean real, devastating surrender. I let it all burn. I faced the void. I let the idea of who I thought I’d be fall away.
And in that darkness, I remembered.
I remembered my background in spirituality. I remembered that I had been reading Hay House books in middle school. That I’d been talking to Spirit since I was a teenager. That I had always been drawn to energy, intuition, and soul work.
Suddenly, the fog began to clear. I didn’t know exactly what I would do, but I knew it would be in service to something greater. I didn’t need a script anymore—I needed truth.
Since then, everything has changed.
I now lead a global community of mystics and spiritual entrepreneurs. I host transformative international retreats. I get to spend my days in conversation with Spirit, helping others remember who they are. I feel fulfilled, lit up, and completely in love with the work I do.
And the wildest part? My background as a performer is still a big part of my purpose. It helps me speak clearly. Show up powerfully. Lead with presence. I didn’t take a detour—I took the road I needed to walk to become who I am now.
I used to think my calling was to be an actor. But really, my calling was to experience ferocious desire—and then be willing to surrender it all for something better.
So if you’re feeling behind… if the thing you thought was meant for you isn’t working out…
Just know: You’re not behind. You’re right on soul time.
✨ A Few Soul-Aligned Tips to Remember When You Feel Behind:
- Stop Comparing Timelines. Your soul didn’t come here to follow a straight path—it came to evolve. Someone else’s chapter 20 isn’t meant to make your chapter 6 feel wrong.
- Feel the Frustration—Then Listen Inward. It’s okay to be disappointed. But don’t stop there. What is the moment actually trying to redirect you toward?
- Reconnect to Joy, Not the Outcome. Purpose isn’t always about what you’re doing—it’s about how it feels. Follow what lights you up, even if it doesn’t make sense right away.
- Make Space for the Pivot. Sometimes what we think is our purpose is just a doorway to the deeper one. Let the old dream go if it no longer fits. Your next chapter will rise to meet you.
- Trust That Nothing Is Wasted. Every skill, every heartbreak, every detour becomes part of the mosaic. Your story is still unfolding—and it’s sacred.
There is always more time. And everything is leading you exactly where you’re meant to be.
The Universe isn’t late. It’s right on time.
And so are you.
