For most of my life, I chased wellness. Raised in a household steeped in conventional medical practices, it was only natural, I reckon, to accept the prevailing belief that we live in broken bodies. My mom worked in a surgical suite, and I spent summers shadowing surgeons with a mindset of “If it ain’t working, take it out.”
When I had severe asthma as a child and grew into a teenager with significant acne, it seemed only logical to “fix” those symptoms with medicine. After all, I was living in one of those broken bodies, and medicine was the “cure,” right?
At some point, I started to question that ingrained belief. It began as pondering (okay, obsessing over) my great-grandmother’s health. She lived her entire life without ever having surgery. Even in her 90s, she didn’t take medication (that I recall). So why was I struggling so much in my 30s?! Why was I popping two prescription medications daily? Why was my gallbladder full of sludge?
What was fundamentally different between her and me?
Awakening to the Body’s Wisdom
As I began asking myself these questions, I awakened to the realization that we aren’t made to be sick.
It would be years more before I began understanding that symptoms are the body’s way of communicating that it’s struggling. As I continued to move in this expanded awareness of health and well-being, I realized something else too—every symptom and disease are an expression of the body’s struggle to create.
Here within this community, I’m preaching to the choir. Since you’re reading this, you already know this truth: you are more than matter. You are embodied energy. And so is every physical thing in the universe.
As you go throughout your day eating food and drinking water, the body transforms the embodied energy of those foods into the embodied energy of you. The food matter is broken down and transmuted into pure energy by each of your trillions of cells.
The body relies on that manifestation of energy from matter for health. Said a different way, health resides in the seamless dance between matter and energy. When I started to understand that this is the way we’re designed, it became blissfully simple to liberate myself from the many, many symptoms I was struggling with.
Chronic UTI symptoms, fatigue, weight gain, migraine, night sweats, insomnia, PCOS, and heart palpitations dissipated, leaving without any trace that they’d ever been with me. I was able to relieve all those symptoms by focusing solely on metabolic health and supporting the three key metabolic hormones to build resilience back into the body.
And, while that was enough to calm my body’s concerns over energy and outright get rid of most of my symptoms, it still felt like something was off. I was better, but I wasn’t truly well… at least not yet.
Unblocking Primal Intelligence
As entrenched as I was in the Western-medicine view of the world, I’d still been dabbling for decades with acupuncturists, Reiki practitioners, and other energy healers of one sort or another. Through a series of well-timed circumstances, none of which I remember the particulars of at this moment, I found my way to a network chiropractor’s office, and my whole world changed.
This gentle touch was unlike anything I’d experienced before. After each session, I felt as though I were unwinding, releasing years of pent-up emotion that I’d refused to let myself feel in real time and releasing it in ways that weren’t uncomfortable… whether because I was finally open to allowing it to release or whether it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, I don’t fully know.
Suddenly, the neck pain I’d lived with for decades started to diminish. I felt more and more at home in my own body rather than just a visitor. It felt as though I was unlocking space within me, opening up long ago shuttered rooms for my soul to dwell. And, in the blink of an eye, I began to become more and more me with each passing day.
This was the healing I’d been seeking. With more clarity, I started making decisions in my life differently as an entrepreneur, as a wife, as a dog mom, as a friend, as a daughter, as a sister. There was no area unaffected.
Perhaps most surprisingly, even to me, I found myself wanting to share this modality with others. That’s when I surprised myself making an unexpected leap, the pharmaceutical research scientist who’s now well on her way to becoming a certified Spinal Flow practitioner.
As you reflect on your own state of health and wellness in this moment, how are you perceiving your symptoms? Are you mad at them for being there, wondering why they’re ruining your life? Or have you opened fully to the possibility that your body is talking to you through those symptoms?
In your own healing journey, are you focused on making space within your body for your soul to reside?
