I'm a "worrier"...

Q:  I am having a personal struggle with knowing and trusting the universe and its power.  This involves career changes for my husband (he's 52), money, moving out of state, leaving all my kids and 14 precious grandkids, homesickness and loneliness on my part, and lots of fear.  (Reaching 50 this year was a major shock). I don't want to be this way any more but can't seem to get on top of it all.  I'm feeling overwhelmed and hard pressed to get control of myself.  I think that's the problem:  wanting to control everything and the outcome!  I have a new quote that has helped a lot: I'm too blessed to be stressed; however, most of the time, I feel too stressed to be blessed.  I know the answers - they're right on the tip of my tongue, but I just can't carry through on them.  I almost feel that it's frivolous to be trusting and knowing and that someone has to worry about all this, and that someone is me!  Big ego, huh?  But it's very real and I know that I'm hard on myself.  Some days I feel that I am really going to break free of this and I feel like a 1000 pounds has been lifted and then it all comes crashing in on me again.  So what am I doing wrong?  Any suggestions?
 

A:  You’re battle is half won. Sounds like you know exactly what you’re dealing with!

Nothing wrong with wanting control… unless you’re trying to control aspects of the physical world. Seek your control by going within. When you feel frantic… get a good metaphysical book and direct you’re thinking to the Truths of Being… that you ARE an unlimited Being of Light, an eternal, ageless being, understand that you can control the emotions you feel (but don’t get mad when you feel overwhelmed by them, they will always pass. Be gentle with yourself – you’re going through a lot). Do your tinkering by visualizing the emotions, not the events, you’re after. Paint with broad brush strokes… you want peace, financial security, a feeling of well being… and see and feel yourself having these… BUT DO NOT TELL THE UNIVERSE HOW to bring these things to you.

You wouldn’t be facing these challenges if you weren’t ready for them, ready to grow and be ”better” than you were! These challenges are exactly what you were ready for. Ride them out. You are much bigger than they are. YOU RULE!

Lastly, don’t suppose you’re doing anything wrong… you’re reactions and setbacks are NORMAL. You’re doing your best, and it WILL be enough. The sun will be shinning before long, you’ll see. Look ahead, not back.