A: Apart from that I can imagine you must feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. I kind of sense you’ve been trying to hit the home run... that never works. You just pitch, enjoy what’s before you, do a bit of everything, and let the Universe hit the home runs. You need a rest from trying so hard.
However trite, things are simply never as black as they appear. Hang in there. If you have to file for bankruptcy, so be it. You’ll be in good company. So did Walt Disney. Just dust yourself back off and have at it again. Don’t let the truly extraordinary gift of life slip through your finger tips. I’ve addressed suicide at the “Ask Mike” section, which you might find helpful.
I would also suggest you simply get back to the working world (while simultaneously dabbling in your websites and writing – if you still want to, or give them a rest). You need cash, but moreover, you need interaction with others. Writing can be very solitary and lonely. You lose touch with life if you aren’t careful. Just do one thing at a time, take one step after another, immerse yourself in new work, in mastering what’s before you, in diversifying socially, and whoosh, everything can change for the better so quickly.
You’re not at the end of your rope. Your rope has no end. You will amaze yourself of what you are capable of enduring, although right now is probably the worst of it. Please just manage one day at a time, and with each day of progress, do your best with appreciating the difference you can make and who you already are.
