A: I'm so sorry to hear of your trauma. But that you wrote means that you must be doing quite well for yourself in the “comeback,” and that there are happier times at hand.

I touched on one possible scenario like yours (but at the same time not like yours) at the bottom of the Tsunami email: http://www.tut.com/askmike/108.htm

Every situation is wildly different, but in the answer above I tried to show that the explanation would almost always be way outside of the box. Still, explanations are not nearly as important as experiencing what you have, are, and will experience from the trauma, and then understanding that it’s your choice how to let it influence the rest of your life.

For whatever reason, and you’ll understand it “one day,” you did “choose” it, from the highest and wisest place you have ever been. I’d try to learn to trust in your own higher self’s wisdom, not question it, nor bother with trying to understand it now. Instead, focus on the endless choices you still have before you in life (perhaps including some of the choices that have arisen because of the abuse, such as helping others through the fog, or perhaps removing all your energy from the past and forgetting it – your call, there’s no right answer, do what you want), and then focus on all the infinite good that still remains in the world.

I do hope that helps. I do not under-appreciate the hideous nature of what happened to you. I just don’t want you to underestimate the infinite possibilities that still exist for your happiness.