My wife left me, now I have no one!

Q:  I doubt anyone will ever read this and if someone does, no one will care. I always thought I was put on this planet to do great things, to love and be loved.  I spent my Birthday alone except for my 3 beautiful schnauzers that stayed by my side all day and night, because they sensed my despair. I am married and have been with the woman I love for 20 years and she moved out on Oct. 29th, in 3 hours, while I was helping a friend in need. I never dreamed that I would come home to realize that a nightmare had begun that will never end. We have spoken a few times and she even came by today to get more of her things, see our precious dogs, and even bring me a birthday present with a card that said very little. This was very painful for her as she got things together and we both took them to her car. I tried to hold back my pain and watched her as she drove off.

I wish I was never put on this planet because there is nothing special about me; just a man that has failed now that I have lost my partner. I sit here writing to TUT, The Universe, or just to time and space, wanting all this pain to end. My whole life has been filled with pain and I would not wish my existence on this earth for more than 50 years on my worst enemy. I am broken, plain and simple. My dogs are by my side as tears run down my cheek and I know I have to stay for them but at times the pain becomes so great I think they might be better off without me, like everyone else that is in my world. For now, I stay and care for them, and exist, because exist is all that is in front of me. Maybe in her mind she had good reason to leave, but all my hopes and dreams left when she did. I guess I wrote to you because I am angry. Each day I receive something from you and I do read them carefully, but the Universe does not feel that way about me, nor will it ever. The Universe loves to see me in pain now, alone, with no angels in sight to be by my side.